Down
The Christmas tree is, as of this morning, down!
I am also down. As in, the dumps.
I've been grumpy pretty much this whole week.
And then, yesterday, I learned that my close friend's friend/neighbor passed away suddenly. She was only 49.
We don't yet know what happened, pending the autopsy. Only that her heart stopped. She was a mother of two, and a grandmother of one.
The worst part: her youngest son, just 15, found her when he got home from school. He attempted CPR while waiting for the ambulance. I feel so terrible for what he must have gone through.
My friends are, of course, having a rough time. They were close.
I knew the woman who passed away, from seeing her often at my friend's house; and we went on some outings together over the years, including a ski trip this past spring.
But here's the thing: I didn't care for her.
I know it's an awful thing to say, now, but she and I had some minor run-ins over the years and the end result was that I really disliked her. I don't think it was mutual. But my friend knew how I felt, so it was sometimes awkward.
Of course my dislike of her wasn't active; I avoided her, but I didn't wish her ill.
I'm not sure if it's my guilt over how I felt about her that is making this so hard, or if I would feel this badly anyway about her sudden death. I just don't know.
Bleh.
I am also down. As in, the dumps.
I've been grumpy pretty much this whole week.
And then, yesterday, I learned that my close friend's friend/neighbor passed away suddenly. She was only 49.
We don't yet know what happened, pending the autopsy. Only that her heart stopped. She was a mother of two, and a grandmother of one.
The worst part: her youngest son, just 15, found her when he got home from school. He attempted CPR while waiting for the ambulance. I feel so terrible for what he must have gone through.
My friends are, of course, having a rough time. They were close.
I knew the woman who passed away, from seeing her often at my friend's house; and we went on some outings together over the years, including a ski trip this past spring.
But here's the thing: I didn't care for her.
I know it's an awful thing to say, now, but she and I had some minor run-ins over the years and the end result was that I really disliked her. I don't think it was mutual. But my friend knew how I felt, so it was sometimes awkward.
Of course my dislike of her wasn't active; I avoided her, but I didn't wish her ill.
I'm not sure if it's my guilt over how I felt about her that is making this so hard, or if I would feel this badly anyway about her sudden death. I just don't know.
Bleh.
Comments
you can;t like everyone. As long as you were never hateful or disrespectful clear ur mind and comfort ur friend.
hugs
You are doing all you can by supporting your friends in their time of need and that is all anyone could possibly expect.
Micki